I first cut about a year ago when my parents divorced and I left it for ages and didn’t cut again but since Christmas time things got worse and I started cutting more often, I did it because i can’t do anything right, I fail at everything I argue with people on top of that no one understands it and I can’t explain to people what I’m going through and how I’m feeling so I cut to let it all out instead
ive decided to do the 30 day self harm challenge to see how it goes and hopefully i can stop cutting now. im going to blog it each day for the challenge thing i have to do
i haven’t written in ages again! i’ve been caught up in so much with school.
I have 2 GCSE maths mock tests next week and i’m dreading them i fail at maths its the one thing i can’t do well along with drawing. I want to get a C so i can do higher tier maths next year as i’m expected a B so thats my aim but knowing my maths skills i’ll fail.
School has been rubbish like normal everything has been rubbish and everyone is being a dick head! my friend had a bad day and thinks the world just stops working so she wasn’t in any lessons i didn’t mind to be honest i hate her anyway but i have to pretend to like her although we’re in an argument at the moment which is fine by me don’t have to deal with her.I’ve had a rubbish past week thats why i haven’t blogged much as i was trying to sort things out and i think i’m pulling through so yeah sorry to anyone who reads my blog for not writing
today was even worse
i ended up practically losing the person i love the most, she just disappears and dont talk to me when i need her the most.
i told one of my closest friends my secret today and it felt good knowing she cares and wasn’t angry about it. I ran 2,500 metres today which was good as i managed to burn of a lot of anger.
okay thats it f**k you! you wont reply to my messages but you sit on this and blog! wow that shows how much you fricking care, i wont bother telling you things anymore cos its not like you do either
urgh!!! today has been one of the worst days ever, my best mate is just ignoring me which is so annoying! she tells me to open up to her and to tell her things when im upset but as soon as i trust her with my secrets and tell her whats wrong she reads my messages and ignores me! so much for friends being there for each other! she is my best mte shes like a sister to me but she acts like she dont care shes just ignoring my message! i am so angry!